I never thought I would experience pain this much.I’m missing him so much.It’s killing me that I’ll never see him,touch him,smell him ever again.Gusto ko umiyak ng umiyak,sumigaw,magalit ng magalit.But, I have to put on a happy face, I have to smile and say everything’s going to be fine, even though I’m dying deep down inside.He took a part of me with him, a part that I’ll never get back. I will never love anyone again as much as I loved him. No man will ever mean as much to me as he did.Nobody knows how much pain and sadness I am going through. No one knows how much this hurts.Sobrang sakit.Sobra sobra sobra sobra

so ganun?you’re happy, i’m still so miserable.can’t help but feel so angry.it’s always like this,papakasarap ka,tapos ako andito,all by myself..pero somehow,lamang pa din ako,because i’m with our daughter.lagi nalang ganito,i was always there for you,to take you home when you get so drunk,clean up after you,clean you up, and make sure you’re safe..so what now?i hope you see how sad and lonely i am without you.we were supposed to be one happy family.what happened?why did this happen?

please let this all just be a nightmare.i’m going to wake up any second..i still expect to see you everywhere..i still expect to hug you,kiss you,smell your skin and give you a big kiss..we’re partners,and partners aren’t supposed to leave each other..you will forever be my everything..you’re my partner,bailey’s daddy, and my forever bestfriend..

and fuck u up

yes it does..

story of my life..i hope this chapter ends..

i sure hope so…

so this is what it feels like when you’ve had enough,when you don’t feel like fighting anymore..when you just want to go with the flow and leave everything up to fate..i never believed in “destiny,” i believe you make your own destiny..but now after everything that’s been going on, i’m starting to wonder if just letting destiny take its course isn’t so bad after all..